Katelyn Tarver - Cynical 歌詞翻譯

不知道為什麼會這樣



I don't know, when I got scared
我不知道是從什麼時候開始的
Scared of my imagination
我開始害怕起自己想像的那些事
Used to see, beautiful things
我曾經, 能看見那些美好的事
Now I got this sick fixation
但現在的我只看的見這些病態的景象

On playing out every single fear I've ever had
輪播著我曾經的那些恐懼
scrolling through their pictures seeing all I don't have
看著那些畫面, 眼中只看的見我那些不足
Believing every negative feeling is a fact
相信著腦裡每一種負面想法都是千真萬確的事實
I don't wanna get used to that
但我並不想習慣那種感覺

Why do I beat myself up
為什麼我要打垮自己
And tear myself down
為什麼我要貶低自己
I'm so good at being critical
我真的太擅長挑剔了
I guess I learned
我猜這些年讓我了解了
it's hard to get hurt when you're good at being cynical
當你是個憤世嫉俗的人時, 你連受傷都很難

I'm jealous of, when I was young
我很羨慕, 年輕時的那個我
and everything was right there waiting
那時一切都在我眼前等著
wanted the sky, aimed so high instead of
那時我眺望著天空, 把目標設在那遙不可及的遠方
lowering my expectations
而不像現在一樣不斷的降低對自己的期望

I don't know how else to keep my feet on the ground
我不知道怎麼讓自己不再不安
And stop the voices in my head from getting too loud
也不知道怎麼讓腦中那些聲音安靜下來
I think I'm  realizing no one figures it out
我想我懂了, 這世上根本沒有人能給出答案
And I gotta get used to that
所以我必須習慣它

Why do I beat myself up
為什麼我要打垮自己
And tear myself down
為什麼我要貶低自己
I'm so good at being critical
我真的太擅長挑剔了
I guess I learned
我猜這些年讓我了解了
it's hard to get hurt when you're good at being cynical
當你是個憤世嫉俗的人時, 你連受傷都很難

if I hope and it doesn't work
如果我抱持期待但事實卻不如我所想
then I know it's gonna hurt
那麼我就知道自己將會再次受傷
so I make a joke act like nothing's wrong
所以我會開自己玩笑, 假裝什麼事也沒有
And put another layer of armor on
然後為自己再添上新一層裝甲

Why do I beat myself up
為什麼我要打垮自己
And tear myself down
為什麼我要貶低自己
I'm so good at being critical
我真的太擅長挑剔了
I guess I learned
我猜這些年讓我了解了
it's hard to get hurt when you're good at being cynical
當你是個憤世嫉俗的人時, 你連受傷都很難